Smile

I finally caught Isaac smiling on camera today. I pretty much think it's the cutest thing. Sometimes I have to work really hard for the smiles...sometimes not so much. Either way, they make my day.

Santa Baby

Or maybe just Santa with a baby.

A Moment

I was hauling a crying Isaac upstairs to feed him and decided I needed to use the bathroom first.

So, I propped him up in the glider with his pacifier loosely in his mouth and went about my business. I could hear a little continued crying and then nothing.

I returned to find this adorable scene.

Photos had to be taken.

I love this kid!

Don't Worry, Be Happy

So, this whole baby thing has been a rocky transition for me. I find that all the worst things about myself have been amplified with having a baby to care for and all the hormones that come with it. I have been kind of a roller coaster of anxiety, worry, stress, and "baby blues" but maybe a little stronger... It's been a rocky road.
But, I think I've turned the corner. It was difficult for me to really enjoy Isaac because I was so worried about every little thing. "Is he sleeping too little, is he eating enough, is he active enough, is he sleeping too much, why can't I get anything done," and on and on.

I know that am I naturally inclined to worry. And I know that I almost always have expectations about things and when I can't count on those expectations or things change too much, I struggle. Like I said, totally amplified by having a newborn. I have come to realize I can't have expectations. Babies are going to be different every day. I can't worry about every little change or I'll go crazy. Well, I'm probably a little too close to crazy all ready!

I know that is no epiphany for the majority of you out there, but trust that it was really hard for me to let go of the worry and the expectations. It's hard for me every day but I am getting better. And I am more able to enjoy the cuteness and fun personality developing in my son. And I'm thankful for that.

He is delightful! Here's the proof... (newest photos to oldest- except the first one, I guess I'm not that great at uploading in the right order and I'm definitely too lazy to change them around.)

These two were taken last night.

This is from last Sunday and the one below is from a week ago.

This was taken on Thanksgiving.

These two were from his blessing day. Jacob wore this sweater outfit when he was blessed. I added the pants and shoes.

This was from his first day at church.